I aM SorrY.. i'm toO LazY To bLogginG..... cHao..

Hey... it's me.. haha..

i'm sorry.. i'm too lazy to bLogging.. next time, when i'm not feeling lazy, i promise to blog again..
i just too boring to blogging...

you know you love me..
xoxo...

neW mE...

everyday... i change one of my bad act... so, i can be a new girl...
i want to be her.. but i can't.... so, i just pretend to be myself.......

i want to do something special to him... but now, i can't... he is hers....
not mine....
so i decided not to love him...

and i think i'm success with it......
now, i can forget him... not forget him too much... just destroy all my love feelings towards him..
so, i'm not crying anymore...

by the way... i'll be going to Dufan next Friday.... yaaaaaaay.. with my friends...
and it'll be fun....... hihihi...
i love Dufan......

NeW pHoTo....

iS iT wRonG..?

salah nggak siih kalo gw patah hati... tapi,, gw bilang ke orang kalo gw gak patah hati...?
nggak kan yaah..? haahha...
i'm not the perfect one...
jadi.. sah sah aja kan kalo gue publikasikan kehadapan publik kalo gw itu nggak patah hati..?
padahal di dalem hati gw, gw udah hancur total.....
okeh.. gw akan belajar.....dengan sangat rajin, agar bisa menyembuhkan luka di hati gw....(ea...ea....)
xixixi... walopun itu teramat sangat sangat berat....at...at.....
okehokeh....walopun nggak ada dia.. masih banyak cowo lain kog...
buuuuuuu.....

GUE GAK PATAH HATI..
gue cuma broken heart doang kog... dikiiiiiit doang...

iT haPPen To Me eVerYdaY..

my tears fell down.. and now, i can't feel any love feeling....
i'm scareeed.... i'm afraid of losing him... but the truth, i already lost him..
he becomes her.. not me.. he belongs to her.. not me...
and i'm dying.. i cry.. everyday, every hour, every minute, every single second of my life..
i adore him.. but.... he isn't mine..
i love him.. but he doesn't love me..
i want to be with him,, but he seems too far from here.. i know..
veryyyy veryyyy far from here.. even i can't reach him..
he's out of my 'control'...

now, i must try.. the hardest things..... to forget him.. with all my strength, i'll try to forget him..
because i know, he isn't for me...

mY worLd isn't that perfect..

dunia gw kayaknya mulai tidak sempurna lagi deh....
orang yg waktu itu nyuekin gw,, mulai nyuekin gw lagi..

wktu itu emang dia sempet nggak nyuekin gw... tapi, 2 hari blakangan dia mulai nyuekin gw lagi.. jujur, gw siih gak terlalu sediih kalo dicuekin gitu... tapi, gak enak aja.. bayangkan,, setiap gw oL msn, ada dia.. hmmmmmmmmmmm... it's confusing me... and it's kinda crazy... i hate that..

si orang kedua juga gitu.. tai lah semua orang..
kalo u mau nyuekin gw... jangan pernah manggil gw chatting pertama.. jangan ajak ngobrol gw.. jangan buat gw penasaran..... btw,, emangnya gw salah yaaa,,kalo gw penasaran sama dia..? nggak kan..? gw juga JELAS-JELAS NGGAK ADA FEELING SAMA DIA... gw itu cuma sebatas meng******** lo kog.. makanya,, jangan ke GEERan....... gw cuma mau kenal u.. sebatas temen..

kalo tau gitu,, gw nggak akan deh ******-****** ****** lo lagi... tai lah... kalo gitu gw gak akan mau kenal sama lo...

LO ITU NGGAK SE-FRIENDLY YANG GW KIRA.. u tuh muna... munafik.. MUNAFIK...
gak seperti yang gw bayangkan.. nggak sesempurna yang gw bayangkan.. ngga sebaik yang gw bayangkan.. ngga seperti ***** buat orang-orang....

The TruTh aBouT mE..

hey.. hi.. hello..

i'm back.. haha.. and i'm happy..
yesterday, i was wondering if i can be his GirlFriend.. but.. now i realize.....that he isn't for me..
now, i still surprise that he already has a girlfriend... i hate that, but i think his girlfriend is cute and kind.. she is good for him.. haahahaha.... i hope they will be happy.... amen..

now... i don't have any boys to love.. but,,, if he ended his relationship with her.... i won't give him back to you anymore....... i still love him.... deep deep inside my heart, i still love him.. with all my strength, i'll love you more and more... everyday, my heart was beating faster and faster...

but now.... do you realize that my heart was torn in two..? it because of you.. you make me like this.. i'm jealous.. with her... she can have you.... but i'm not.. i'm not the one that you want... i'm not the one that you love... i'm just Stella.. just myself....

so, i decided to freeze all my feeling towards you.. and i think it takes a long long long time to forget you..
thanks for being my boy..............

still love you....
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eVeryDay,, i GeT SomeThinG NeW fRom tHe WorLd..

heihei..... semuanyaaah... hahahaha.. balik lagi sama gw..
hari ini gw belajar, lebih tepatnya kemaren kaliiii yeee....... gw itu belajar bahwa semua orang itu nggak akan nyuekin lo lebih dari 1 minggu... X) haahaha.... ternyata semua orang itu baik.. emang, gw tau kog, gw udah salah kalo ngeliad dia dengan sebelah mata... gw emang sempet ngerasa kalo orang itu jahat sama gw.... tapi,, ternyata dia masih fine" ajeee sama gw.. dan gw seneng akan hal itu.. gw seneng kalo dia itu sadar,,,,, kalo gw itu care sama dia....... XP..... gw pengen dia itu happy, meskipun dia bukan jadi milik gw...

1 lagi yang bikin gw senang, satu yang bikin gw sedih........ ternyata DIA yang selama ini gw ceritakan... DIA yang gw kejar......... ternyata udah gak AVAILABLE... he is absolutely UNAVAILABLE.... he has his own girlfriend... hahaha..... but, no problem at all.. gw udah bisa terima kalo mereka itu jadian.. it just an old story... let's begiin the new one.... without HIM..... with new BOYS... hahaha...

let it flow.. kalo kata Aldi..... =P

dan gw mulai menganut paham itu.. paham LET IT FLOW yang bener" bisa bikin u tuh jadi sante waeeee lah menghadapi semua masalah.. tapi, bukan berarti gw ngeremehin itu masalah loooh........

X)

okay,, that's all my story,,,
i'LL post next time...

sTiLL the same...
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neW boRn GirL..

hey everybody.. back to my bussiness.. it's me again.. and now, i have 3 followers who read my blog..
ahahahaha..

okayyyy.... let's talk about my day..
hari ini dulu x y.. coz hari ini seru... hahaha...
tadi pagi, gw banguuun dan merasakan bahwa HP gw bergetar.. oh, ad SMS.. otomatis gw langsung buka hp n liad tu HP.. dari Angel.. ngga penting.. akhirnya gw tidur lagi.. bangun" itu jam 8.. karena peruuut gw keroncongan abiiiiz... jadilah gw turun ke bawah n mendapati kalo ii gw lagi bikin bakmi.. yuuummmm.. so, i decided to eat.. after that.... i went to sleep again.. hahaha.. until 10 o'clock.. and than, i woke up and go to the bathroom.. after took a bath, i went home.. i finally got to my school at 12... abis itu ketemu sama Qing" n Vania there.... udah itu mereka gw antar (ciiieeeee antar looh) kerumah gw.. n kita buat replikasi DNA bareng"..
abis qing" n vania nyampe kerumah gw, langsung aj gw ajak mrk k kamar atas... naik 1x.. udah itu, gw baru inget, gw lupa ngambil barang".. turun 1x... udah itu gw naik lagi naro barang"... naik 2x.. teruuuus, baru sebentar gw duduk, nia telpon.. katanya udah di depan rumah... turun 2x... baaaah,, udah itu gw ke depan, bukain pintu.. udah itu gw ajak mereka (nia n teddy) naik dong.. naik 3x.. udah itu baru gw duduk bentar lagi, sii nia bilang "la, tang nya mana...?"... anjrooot.. bikin gw cape aje.. turun 3x... naik 4x... trus abis itu, gw sempet kerja bentar.. tau" Rendy telpon.. "la gw udah di depan rumah lo"... CIPUY.... gw turun lagi... turun 4x.. udah itu bukaiin pintu lagi... trus naik lagiiiii.... naik 5x..........
gila.. capek kan..? untungnya abis it gw gak disuru naik-turun lagi.. bisa mampus gw ntar.... kita kerja sampe jam 3an lahh.. lumayan lama... seru..... ngobrol"..... yaaah, standard anak SMA kalo kerja kelompok gitu laaahhh.......
terus... ada 1 foto hot.... hihihi...... Teddy lagi nungging... ntar gw upload deh..
gw lagi gak megang HP siih.. ntar kalo gw udah pindahin, gw upload...

wkwkwkwk... after that..... i watched berbie and 12 dancing princess... i love it..... huuuuh,, i want to be barbie all the time.... hahahaha....

after that,, here i am.. stuck with the laptop... and downloading my iTunes........

ThE TruTh...

1. he isn't that FRIENDLY.. i promise to myself that i won't start the chatting to HIM.. haha..

2. he isn't that KIND...

3. he isn't that CUTE...

4. he isn't that great....

5. he isn't my i*** anymore...

6. instead of that..... i still want you to be my friend... hahahaha..... poor me... udah kayak temen gw dikit aje gitu,, gw rela mohon" sama u buat jadi temen gw... makasiiih deh.... but sure... i still forgive u for all the thing u do to me.......

7. tuuh kan..? see....? dia sombong sekarang.. okayokay... liat aja ntar...

8. 2 orang baru yang gw kenal,, yang gw hormati,, yang gw bener" waaaaw sama mereka... sekarang udah berubah.. dan gw BODO amat akan hal itu.. i never want you to be my friend.. you start it.. and u finished it.. i just.... LET IT FLOW....

TodaY....

hi all.. i learnt from the past... again..

1. ini gw tau dari acara reality lebay di salah 1 stasiun TV.... "kalo u mau dihargain sama orang lain, jangan pandang orang lain itu dengan hanya sebelah mata u.. apalagi kalo u ud sampe ngeremehin orang itu.. hal itu nggak berguna" --kata" itu dalem banget.. gw langsung ngerasa "waaah, kayaknya itu kayak yang gw alami".... hei".. tapi, jangan salah dulu.. bukan berarti gw yang ngeremehin orang.. gw yang DIREMEHKAN orang.. okay",, gak selalu gw yang diremehkan.. dalam hal ini, gw jg sering ngeremehin orang.. haha.. tapi,, kalo kali ini, gw merasa diremehkan sama orang..

2. "Jangan pandang orang itu dari TAMPAK LUARNYA saja.." orang itu, walopun jelek, tetep ciptaan Tuhan.. jadi, kalo u gak mau bergaul lantaran orang itu jelek, sebenernya itu salah banget.. (utuk kasus ini,, gw tidak bisa menghindari untuk tidak berteman dengan A1J1...... hahaha... i'm sorry..)

3. walaupun badai menghalang,, gempa bergelora,, petir menyambar... gw sangat yakin bahwa nyokap gw tetap nggak akan memperbolehkan gw untuk bolos les orgen (eLectone..) hahaha... i know.... but mom...... i have a lot things to do..... blogging, studying (i have an exam tomorrow.. and i must study 30 pages at once...!!)

4. walopun u punya duit yang sangat melimpah,, jangan pernah gunakan duid itu untuk beli petasan... atopun kembang api..... tapi... kembang api boleh lah... yang penting,, jangan sok"an gara" punya duit,, u ngabisin duid u sia" dengan MAIN KEMBANG API DI TENGAH SORE BOLONG GINI.. sumpah, u tuh bisa dikira orang goblok... ngapain coba,, main kembang api..? orang masih terang-benderang ginii... udah warna kembang api nya nggak keliatan, u tuh bakalan dicemooh sama orang" sekitar yang bilang kalo "iih,, kog main kembang api sore-sore..?"

hahaha.. it's now 5.19PM and i'm going to download the iPhone software update,, and study the biology.....

sTiLL the same,,
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NeW TempLaTe.....

HELLO.... finally i can change my blog's layout.. hahaha... thanks for Z*... =)
check it out, friends....!!!
even it's pink,, i still like it...

gonna miss him.. so much........

SomeThinG gooD tO knoW......

today,, i learnt a lot things about the world..... my world..

1. jangan percaya sama orang lain sepenuhnya... karena gw mengalami sendiri kalo orang itu menghianati gw ABIS... jangan percaya sepenuhnya sama orang yang ada di deket u.. kalo u ad masalah, gw sarankan untuk menulisnya di blog atau tulis uneg" u di MS WORD.. yang jelas,, sebisa mungkin hindari kontak dengan orang lain.. apalagi masalah CINTA dan COWOK.....

2. jangan pernah terbawa geer hanya karena ada orang yg ngeCHAT u tiba".. apalagi langsung jadi akrab gitu... gw menyadari bahwa hal itu gak akan pernah bertahan lama... IT HAPPEN TO ME, TWICE.. believe it...

3. jangan pernah ngasi tau orang kalo u tuh lagi deket sm MR.RIGHT.. just keep it in your heart.... jangan pernah cerita ke temen, ato bahkan adik u kalo perlu.. karena pada akhirnya, u akan menyesali banget apa yang telah u perbuat itu...

4. gw emang selalu nggak bisa nganggep enteng suatu hal... contoh : kalo ada seseorang dari temen gw yg dapet masalah, n dia cerita sama gw,, gw pasti akan mikirin itu sampe gw dapet jawabannya... gw bisa mikir sampe jauuuuuh banget.. bahkan yang dia nggak sempet pikirin sekalipun....... orang" banyak yg bilang kalo hal itu tuh buruk banget.. terlalu mikirin semua-muanya... tapi, setelah tadi gw sharing sama UUNK, menurut gw itu baik kog.. gw merasa bangga.... karena gw udah bisa peduli sama orang lain.. walopun itu cuma ada di hati gw...

5. semua cowok itu sama aja MUNAFIK.... itu hal yang gw anut.. kalo u deket sama 1 cowo, let it flow aje.. jangan over" deh.. ntar malah dianggap alay sama dia..

6. cinta itu nggak selamanya indah.. dulu, gw percaya banget kalo sebenernya cinta itu sangaaaat indah.. tapi kenyataannya,, nggak seindah itu kog...

7. kalo u slalu tergantung sama temen curhat u, yang ada u tuh jadi makin cengeng......... jangan ceritain semua masalah u ke dia.. SHE CAN DOUBLE-CROSSED U....!!!!!!

itu yang gw pelajarin hari ini.. and it makes me feel like i'm not the one for HIM... i think i'll try to forget him.... as hard as i can...... hhhhh,, i hope it's the best for my life....

sTiLL the same...
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