iT haPPen To Me eVerYdaY..

my tears fell down.. and now, i can't feel any love feeling....
i'm scareeed.... i'm afraid of losing him... but the truth, i already lost him..
he becomes her.. not me.. he belongs to her.. not me...
and i'm dying.. i cry.. everyday, every hour, every minute, every single second of my life..
i adore him.. but.... he isn't mine..
i love him.. but he doesn't love me..
i want to be with him,, but he seems too far from here.. i know..
veryyyy veryyyy far from here.. even i can't reach him..
he's out of my 'control'...

now, i must try.. the hardest things..... to forget him.. with all my strength, i'll try to forget him..
because i know, he isn't for me...